Forgiveness: 36 Years Worth

Happy Birthday to me!! I am so blessed to celebrate another year of life. As I celebrate my 37th year on this earth, I can’t help but look back on my first 36 years. My gift to myself is, RELEASE. I don’t often open up about my childhood, I especially never thought I would blog about it, because it was very painful. However, I have learned that in order to grow, you must look back, forgive, let go, and move forward.

I thought that I had let go of what happened to me a long time ago. I realized that I didn’t, because I had not forgiven those who did it to me. I don’t want to carry these pains anymore. Well, in my 36th year on this earth, I finally forgave the ones who robbed me of my childhood innocence.

I forgive the stranger who thought that a seven year old girl was a great target, and tried to rape her on her way home. I forgive my Godmother’s adult daughter for abusing me out of jealousy and putting scars on me that will make it hard to forget, because she could not stand how much her mom could love a little girl whom was not her own. I forgive my godmother’s husband who found it appropriate to sneak into the bed of a child and molest her. I forgive all the adults who knew what was happening, but did nothing but look at me with shame. I forgive the son of my mom’s best friend who tried to rape a 13 year old girl, whom had already been through so much already.

Most of all, I forgive my mom for never letting go of her abusive past, and taking it out on me, because I was born from rape, and looking at me was a constant reminder of that. I know that you love me mom, but the pain was so deep, that you couldn’t forget it. I know that pain, because I went through it too. I am sorry for the reminder that I was of that painful day in your life, when the man you trusted, broke that trust in the worst way. I am so glad that in my 36th year, we both found peace, and finally forged the relationship with each other, that we both deserve.

I know that some may think that this is dark for a birthday post, but this is my truth, and I wanted to RELEASE it all before I celebrated another year. Also, my spiritual counselor has told me for years that sharing my story may be a blessing to someone else who may be living their truth in silence as well.

So to all who know the truth, let’s celebrate letting go.

I am so thankful for the good childhood memories that has allowed me to remember that though we may go through times of struggles, there are reasons to smile and be grateful.

I am grateful for my sisters who gave me their blessings and pushed me to release, when I told them what I was going to write about. I am thankful to my dad, who stepped in and loved me as his own. He showed me the qualities of a great man and father. I am thankful for my husband and kids whom are a constant reminder of God’s love for me, and a reminder of what true unconditional love looks and feels like. I am so thankful for this gift of sewing that God has blessed me with, that has given me a place of peace to go to and Express myself creatively. I am thankful that this past year I was able to meet some wonderful people in the sewing community whom has strengthened my hope and belief in human goodness.

Me at 8 years old
My 9th birthday
My sisters and I Christmas 1991
My skinny self at the beach (9 years old)
I thought I was so fashionable as a teen 😂😂
I was always following my sister Simone around, she never knew it then, but I looked up to her. She was my hero.
My high school graduation
My beautiful and stylish mom in the 80s
Me at my senior prom
I was 19 in this photo
I was 21 in this pic
Me and my military battles
My mentor and my best friend
The love of my life on our wedding day.
The man who may not be my bio dad, but he stepped up and was the father I needed in my life. I will always be grateful to you Dad. I love you.
I love you mom. You sacrificed so much for us, and you loved us the best way you knew how.
Me and my daughter. My first born.
Me and my son, my little superhero.
I made it through so that I could be what I needed to be for them.

The few times I have shared me story, people always ask me the same question. “How did you make it through all of that. How do you smile so much after all you’ve been through.?” My answer is always the same. “God helped me through by placing the right people around me in the right season, and I am a strong willed individual, who will never let circumstances keep me from the life I desired.”

Today is my birthday you guys, and I am moving forward, and believing that my best life is ahead of me. This dress that I created for myself means a lot, because I created it with love, hard work, and determination. I chose blue not because it’s my favorite color, but also because it is known to be a peaceful and tranquil color. I am at peace in my life. My past will never be forgotten, but it has been forgiven.

I am a true virgo.
Thank you Lord for another year
These hands have created so much goodness, they should never be used to tear down nor destroy.
Happy Birthday lady!! Live, love, and laugh. You deserve it.
Turning my back on the past, my future is now my only concern

Thank you guys for sharing in this moment with me by reading my blog post. It was most personal and most difficult post, but I am so glad that I wrote it. I don’t know who you are, but someone was supposed to read it today. I pray it helps you in the way you need it most.

One Shirt Three Looks: The shirt that goes with everything.

Hi everyone! I hope all is well with you. Today I am coming to you with a top that has truly helped me create some wonderful looks. What I love most is that this top can be worn casually and dressy.

I found a beautiful laser cut ponte knit fabric at my local Atlanta fabric warehouse, Fine Fabrics. I am so glad that I bought quite a bit of the fabric, because I wanted to make more than one garment out of it.

I love the laser cut detail.

I used my favorite hackable pattern to create the top, McCalls 6886. I cut it about three inches below the waistline mark on the pattern paper. For the sleeve and hem, I stitched the solid border of the fabric to the end of the sleeve and the hem of the top. Next was deciding what I wanted to create to wear with this versatile top.

I found a very pretty gingham fabric at Jo-Anns, and I knew right away that I wanted to make pants using my favorite jeans pattern, the Ash jeans from Megan Nielsen. I am a stickler for matching stripes, so I cut each piece one by one, and slowly.

Next I created white pants from the laser cut ponte knit fabric using my favorite pants pattern of the summer, Simplicity 8841. These pants were so very easy to make, I added lining of course, I don’t need anyone seeing my private locations 😂😂.

The final look is my most favorite. I absolutely love my skirt, and the blast of color that it gave to my top. I used Simplicity 1369 to create my skirt. The only modification I made was by adding about 6 inches to the width of the skirt, and about 18 inches to the length.

I had so much fun creating these looks for my upcoming birthday, and I will be wearing them until the Atlanta weather tells me it’s too cold, and maybe then I’ll just add a coat and still strut 😂😂.

Thank you all for taking the time to read my blog. I hope that I have inspired you to create something beautiful.

Pattern Mashup: Simplicity 8841 & Mccalls 7955

Hello everyone!! I hope all is well with you. Often times when we look at patterns, we see the photos on the envelope and set out to recreate it. How many of you look at the patterns for what it could be, and how many ways we can use that pattern to create your version of a look? For me, I often look at patterns as a foundation, a starting point to get me to the design that I have pictured in my mind, or was inspired by.

Two wonderful ladies in the sewing community on Instagram created a challenge called the #sewcialmashup challenge, and it was right up my alley you guys. I found a gorgeous cotton crepe fabric at my local fabric warehouse, Fine Fabrics here in Atlanta, so I decided to use it to create a jumpsuit by using my favorite pants pattern, Simplicity 8841 and for the bodice, I used McCalls 7955.

I cut the bodice at the waistline, which is marked on the pattern, omitted the drawstring on the side of the bodice and added an invisible zipper. For the pants, I made no alterations, I just omitted the waistband. After sewing each piece separately according to the pattern instructions, I attached both pieces together.

This was such a fun project and I absolutely love the outcome. I don’t know about you guys, but I always feel so beautiful and glamorous wearing beautiful clothes, especially when it is made by me.

Thank you guys for taking the time to read my blog. I hope it inspired you to create something beautiful of your own.

Misty Cami: Hack it My Way.

Hi everyone, I hope all is well with you. Today I am coming to you with the Misty Cami by Sew Altered Style.

When Sew Altered style approaches me about joining their Misty Cami Hack tour, I was excited. I have never made a cami before, and I love a good hack. I really appreciate a pattern company who embrace the idea of sewists using their patterns as a stepping stone to their ideal garment.

From Cami to Maxi

I will start off by admitting that I have not been the biggest pdf pattern fan. Printing all of those papers and taping them all together seemed so very tedious. However, I must say, it was not as bad as I thought. It took me about 30 minutes to tape all of the paper together. There was a total of 64 pages.

I knew right after I saw the pattern pieces that I wanted to create a maxi dress, I mean, it is a summer staple. I used view A. I wanted the dress to be fun, feminine, and bright, hence my fabric choice. I used a yellow cotton eyelet that I purchased a while back from Jo-Anns before I was even asked to do this project, talk about fate huh.

I always drape my fabric in my dress form when I bring it home.

To turn the cami I to a maxi dress, I did not have to make many alterations. I just added 10″ to the length of the dress pattern, added a casing to the inside of the dress, and created a double elastic waist just below the bustline. I also liked the fabric rather than do facings as the instructions suggested. Considering the material I used, lining was the best choice.

I did not have to make any fit adjustments, which made me a very happy girl. The size suggestions in the pattern was true to size. Great job on that ladies. Overall, I am very pleased with the pattern, sizing, and hackability. I am definitely creating this pattern over and over again.


I had to throw in the turquoise converses 💙💙

Thank you guys so very much for taking the time to read my blog post. Go out and support Sew Altered Style, and get this pattern, you will be so very happy to did. Until next time you guys, make what you want to make.

GREAT JEANS

Hi everyone, or as we say in Georgia, hey ya’ll! When Tammy and Nicole of D&H Fabrics chose me as one of the bloggers for their first ever blogger’s tour, I was ecstatic! I also knew that I wanted to take this opportunity to make something that I’ve never created before, due to fear of failure. I wanted to make jeans pants.

The Fabric

As soon as I entered the D&H website I was so in love with the selection, that I could not just choose one fabric to use for my project. I chose the cone mills slub indigo denim and the cozy cloud sweater knit. If you’re going to make jeans, why not make a top to go with it right? The denim fabric is so sturdy and comfortable. I could tell right away that this fabric was made to last. The sweater knit is so soft and cozy (now I understand the name) that I must order more to make jammies.

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The Pattern
I am a big fan of Megan Nielsen’s patterns, so of course I had to use her Ash jeans pattern. For my top, I used my go to t-shirt pattern, Jalie pattern, 2805.              

The Jeans
I must admit that I had no idea what I was up for when creating my jeans. Constructing the jeans was not the difficult part, the topstitching would be the Magnito to my Professor X (Marvel comic fan). However, I pushed through, and I must say that I am pretty happy about the outcome, considering that this was my first time making jeans.

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The Top

The top was a very easy make, and I love it so much, that I’ve already washed and worn it three times since I made it a week ago. I must say that the sweater knit fabric is such great quality that even after so many washes in such a short time, it holds its color and texture very well.

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I am grateful to Tammy and Nicole for allowing me to be a part of this wonderful journey. Through this, I have discovered wonderful sewists and amazing fabrics. I look forward to  creating more projects with their amazing fabrics.

GOLDEN VELVET

Hi everyone! I hope all is well with you. I am all smiles right now because it is fall 🍁, and it is my favorite time of year. I love watching the leaves change from green to reds and oranges. I love decorating the outside and inside of my home with pumpkins and fall decors, but most of all, I look forward to fall because I get to pull out all of my velvet clothing and make new ones for this year. Today I am going to share my new me made outfit with you, as well as include a few photos of my favorite velvet garments that I have created so far, so keep on reading.

For my first look, I used two different patterns to create a full outfit. The first pattern that I used to make my top is the new fall pattern from McCalls Pattern company, M7836. For my pants, I used Simplicity 1283 by Mimi G.

My Review

Fabric Used: I used a gold metallic velvet fabric from Promenade Fabrics.

Were the instructions easy to follow? The instructions were very easy to follow. Both pieces were easy to make as well, I finished both in under an hour (not including cutting the pattern pieces).

Pattern alterations or any design changes you made: I did not make any alterations nor modifications, it was perfect as is.

Would you sew it again? Would you recommend it to others? I would definitely use both patterns again. I have already used Simplicity 1283 to make several pants.

Conclusion: I love both patterns, and I am very happy with the outcome. What I love most is that I was able to use two patterns to create a beautiful and luxurious outfit that I can also wear separately with different garments.

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I absolutely love velvet, it’s soft, warm, and beautiful to look at. I have already created a few velvet pieces this season. Please continue scrolling to see my favorite velvet garments that I created. Thank you guys so much for taking the time to read my blog, I truly appreciate it.

“Dare to love yourself
as if you were a rainbow
with gold at both ends.

Author: Poet Aberjhani